Once I “committed” myself to someone who promised to give me happiness and love. But what if my expectations turned out to be illusory and unjustified? What if I was shown a distorted picture of love? I trusted the man and opened my soul. And it made me vulnerable. It turned out that I became just another “entertainment” for him. It is difficult to break up with my beloved, because I have already completely dissolved in him. Why did everything happen this way? Why did I “give up” myself, my interests and career opportunities? I was left alone with my confusion. Did I love? Or was she just looking for her own benefit, trying to escape loneliness? I am acquiring invisible armor, because it is better than openness and trust. Painful breakup. Trying to find yourself. Loneliness? Or a new relationship? Which option will I choose now?