At first, Lida left her mother - just left and did not return, leaving her daughter to be raised by her grandmother in a remote village. So the girl grew up - with the firm conviction that no one needs . Then she was abandoned by men - just like her mother: unexpectedly, meanly, unfairly .. So that every time I wanted to shout: "My dear, what have I done to you?" And did nothing. Just programmed for loneliness, longing, failed life. She was like Kaya in "The Snow Queen", bewitched, frozen heart . And Lida did not doubt that it could not be defrosted .. And she did not want to - to live with a glaze instead of a heart, even comfortably: no torment of conscience, no suffering. And there is no love either - so as not to be disappointed later . Lida did not take into account one thing - it is impossible to live without love . And it definitely comes even if you are desperately resisting it ..