Follows Zak Smith (or Zak Sabbath) from the New York art scene to Los Angeles's seedy, yet colorful, underbell--the world of alt porn. Smith narrates his own foray into pornography and gives his readers a new understanding of the industry, its players, and its audience. Blends memoir with Smith's own drawings and paintings.;Valentine's Day -- I crawl like a pig -- The sex scene -- Wolves -- Nothing unimportant -- I go to Los Angeles to be in porn -- Pretend your task is not degrading -- Plot developments -- Pictures of nights -- Drawings -- Boba Fett, etc. -- Cause-and-effect problems -- A side note -- Of braindead fucks -- Why I am that fucker -- Oh, also, about porn girls -- Drawings -- How do your friends talk to you after you start making porn? -- Like porn only a place -- Fish, pig, bug, etc. -- Like porn only good -- Things are this way -- MSA-0011 [ext.] EX-S G U et al. -- Other people's cities in the dark -- Drawings -- A few brief things I should say before we get started talking about porn again -- Cartoons about pain -- Barely legal whores get gang-fucked -- Year of the Rat -- Useful intelligence gleaned from simulated drowning, sexual humiliation, and the intentional infliction of bodily harm -- Drawings -- Conversation I have with Leom McFrei just before shooting Medical -- Conversation I have with Osbie Feel just before shooting Medical -- Conversation I have with Osbie just after shooting Medical -- Medical (part one) -- Medical (part two) -- Medical (part three) -- Death -- Mailbag.