In Russia, postpartum depression is considered a common phenomenon that women should easily cope with. However, if this is not the case, we are dealing with the most severe cases of depression, even serious crimes of a mother towards her child. For a very long time I was sure that I was not depressed, but just raging hormones in my body that did not subside... And those close to me did not understand why I would not stop behaving aggressively or, on the contrary, indifferently... and constantly roaring, and I shake and insult everyone for no reason. At some point, I decided to take my own life, and after an unsuccessful attempt, unknowingly, also the life of the child. But today I am a happy mother, I hope, of a happy daughter, and I absolutely don’t understand how I managed to live those 10 months in the fog of hopelessness. And for you, dear girls, in this mini-book I present tips that you can use or ignore. In the end, everyone has their own story.Contains foul language.