Where to find your happiness? And what is it — “happiness”? Calm life or passionate passions, love or calculation, popularity and adventure or quiet, cozy ignorance . Perhaps happiness is a certain result, the achievement of the result . Or the path itself . At the age of 17, I did not understand what a happy life was like, but I fearlessly went in search of one. When I thought I had found her, she walked away from me, running away like sand through my fingers. And also unexpectedly returned, bringing with it a lot of new, sometimes contradictory emotions! A lot was experienced and a lot still awaited me ahead . I didn't know if I'd find my happiness in a year or at least by old age. Or maybe meet him in a minute, around the nearest corner? Sit comfortably, open the book, and I will tell you my story.