This story is a manifesto of the apathetic state and powerlessness in which I have been living for more than a year. I would like to note that to many the text will seem outright stupidity and vulgarity. This is true. But someone will see a reflection of their own reality. My reality is what is written below, what prompted me to write this work. She helped me break the vicious circle and chain of depressive days a little. Maybe it will affect some of you too? I hope so... The material is not a figment of the imagination, any similarities with your emotional state are not accidental, but are a call to action... Contains obscene language.